realization

A while ago I was standing in front of the sink doing dishes, and I opened the window in front of me so I could see the kids playing on the tramp; and all three of them were jumping and laughing and falling around on top of each other, so happy and young and perfect, I just froze; and all of a sudden my throat swelled up and my breath caught, everything seemed so lovely and breakable and transient.

And that was when I knew. I mean, I took a test later to be sure, but I don't usually sit around my kitchen crying over the Great and Tragic Beauty of Life unless I'm in the family way.