Wednesday, September 29, 2010

baby

Today the boys slept until nearly 8:30. They came and got in bed with me. Ivy climbed out of her crib to find us and crawled onto the bed. No one could stop giggling so we went downstairs and ate breakfast. I turned on the music. We danced while we cleaned the kitchen. We did scriptures, we did reading, we did homework. We went upstairs to dress.

It was a good morning, is what I'm saying.

Then it was time for Michael to catch his bus. Christofer came home, and we packed William and Ivy in the car to head for my ultrasound appointment.

When I first found out I was pregnant, I told Chris I didn't want to find out what we were having. I had no gender preference this pregnancy; all I wanted was another baby. I thought it was the perfect time to be surprised. Christofer, it turned out, was not keen on the idea. Really, I should have known. I tried and tried to talk him around, but when it comes to our babies Christofer prefers as few surprises as possible. Two years ago when I called to tell him Ivy was being induced a week earlier than planned, tomorrow as a matter of fact!, he was more stressed than thrilled. And this time he was adamant. I could be surprised all I wanted, but as for him, he was going to find out. Be prepared. All that. If I didn't want to know, he would be happy to not tell me.

This was an unnacceptable option, of course, for two reasons: 1. not telling me doesn't mean not taunting me, AND YOU KNOW YOU WOULD CHRISTOFER, and 2. I am far too curious. If Christofer knows something, I want to know, too.

So I decided I would just find out with him. I mean, it's not like I didn't want to know. I got excited about it. I got this kids excited about it. (I got William a little too excited about it, unfortunately; I think he found the whole thing very anti-climactic.) And there we were, on our way to the doctor, listening to William talk about how we're going to find out if the baby is a boy or a girl today, when Christofer cut in, "Nope. I don't think we'll find that out today, bud. But we'll still see pictures of the baby." I thought he was just teasing William, maybe me; it wasn't until I was laying on the table in the ultrasound room and the tech asked if we wanted to know the gender and Christofer turned and looked at me questioningly that I realized he was serious. He was leaving it up to me.

So we didn't find out. It was harder than I thought, while sitting there, to not look and not ask, but I chalk that up to the fact that I was expecting to find out today.

This baby is mystery for a little while longer. I know everything I need to: it is healthy and teeny and already very-much-loved.

10 comments:

Erin said...

ARRG I could NEVER do that! I need to know EVERYTHING down to full karyotype! Oh well. Well hope it works out. My friend didn't want to know and the doc would start the ultrasound and go "whoops, don't look at that! Heh heh!" Wonder if it's a boy...

Adam D said...

I don't know if it's a commentary on me or you that I cry so often when reading your posts. I just love the way you write. And Chris. What a man.

Sarah said...

You are CRAZY! Maybe it is an "ott" thing, but I would HAVE to know. Good grief! :) I am excited for you though.

Spliz said...

Erin--the margin for error is small, I have such routine pregnancies (thankfully!) I've never had more than one ultrasound.

Adam--maybe it was just because deep down you're ready for another baby...(I can already picture Katie's response here)

Sarah--I HAD to know the first time and the third time, it would have been too much otherwise.

Mauri said...

ok...and all that build up. now I need to know!
thanks for ruining my day :)

Mauri said...

and hahaha I'm totally laughing, did adam really write that or was it katie signed on under adams account?!

Turley Family said...

i was all excited in the 1st part of your blog post, i started reading and was going to skip down to see what the gendar was, but i wanted the good build up of your stories...then i got to the end...are you kidding me! wow, i can't believe you guys aren't finding out!!! can't wait to get the phone call in a few months when you find out! got any names picked out. i promise i won't steel them.

Ashley said...

Yeah! Good for you.

Johnson-n-Johnson said...

boooooo!!!! HAHA! I honestly don't know how you can wait. But, good luck with the wait. Can't wait to see new little Ott! We love you guys!
brandi

Grandy said...

You are two tough cookies...or maybe just retro...your Mom and I certainly didn't know which sex you were,( ok--I was hoping for another boy...) but you were certainly destined to be perfectly loved, totally perfect and perfect together!